Promises to myself

Wow, has it really been weeks since I last logged on? I have so much to share with this post. December 2012 was quite a ride! Things are finally starting to continue at a leisurely pace and I can now breathe. Our Christmas was great! We received some news that was just the cherry on top of the Christmas ice cream. The band will be opening up for Los Lonely Boys (LLB) soon!!! WOW! This band started with my husband and his cousin, who at the time were really quite inspired by LLB. This is a dream come true! We are, as you can imagine, very excited!

My darling girl really enjoyed herself on Christmas day, she played most of the day with her new toys.  We were all so exhausted by 3pm Christmas day that we all went to our beds and slept for two hours straight. It was quite nice to have a midday nap for a change hubby and I joked that the nap was our Christmas gift from our darling girl. 🙂

We are four days away from the New Year. The band will be on the East Coast for a New year’s eve party/gig and fly back on New Years day. This will be the first year that I won’t have a New Year’s kiss from my hubby out of the 11 years we have been together. I am a bit bummed about that but I’ll have my little girl to kiss who is a part of hubby so that makes things a little better. Every year, for the New Year I have made several promises to myself. I would like for this year to be the year that I own up to those promises and they are the same every year:

1. Make time for family

2. Go back to school to get my Masters

3. Focus on my health/Fitness

4. Sing (I used to be in a choir… I really do miss singing but it feels like the longer I have waited to get back out there the more I am afraid)

5. Get back into my field (Marketing/Design/Promotions)


I have been better about spending time with my family this past year and this blog along with my craft blog makes me feel like I’m making an effort in getting back into my field. This blog helps me with my communication skills 🙂 I am excited to see what 2013 has in store for me and my family. Happy New Year from my family to yours. God bless!








Happy December!

It is December again. The month filled with Christmas cheer, joy, and love. I am excited about this month, I used to be  grinch to be quite honest but something about having a child makes this time of year so much more exciting and fun. Last night we put a Christmas Tree up for my girl she had fun helping us put the ornaments on and her reaction when she saw the lights come on…priceless. My girl just stood there staring at the tree for quite some time and she’s a toddler that never stops moving.

Our weekend was nice we got to join daddy on a gig in Taos, NM. This was my first time and Taos and wow it is a beautiful place I really enjoyed myself. We got to see all the Christmas lights up and we danced the night away during the concert. Baby girl loves to dance, especially when she gets to teach someone her Mickey Mouse “Hot Dog” Dance haha it was really great to meet some new fans and get out of the ordinary for us.

The band has a few more gigs coming up this weekend but we won’t be joining them since there are long drives in between. We are planning on taking my grandmother and baby’s great grand mother out and about to Gallup for some native grub and Native Christmas shopping. It should be fun!

Let’s make this a December to remember 😀

What a Wonderful Weekend!

I hope you all had a great weekend just like mine. I was finally able to attend one of hubby’s concerts and wow was I blown away. They have gotten really good!! I know I am biased but they are just an amazing group together. I love being on the road and meeting new people. It was really nice to get away from the ordinary. I really want to share the name of the band but for the time being I would like for this blog to be my very own place to vent or share my thoughts freely without judgement. I really haven’t invited any of my family or friends to this blog I want a group of people that don’t know me, I hope that makes sense.  I think in the future I may share it but for right now it’s my place.

Baby girl did so well on the trip even though she had a fever for the last two days. I love my baby girl to pieces she just brings me so much joy….my baby girl is growing up too fast. I would like another baby before I turn 30 but I don’t feel like we’re ready financially. I am also still a bit traumatized about my delivery experience well let’s just say my darling girl was not a very little baby, she was a whopping ten (10) pounds. On the other hand, I would do it all over again just for her.
Thanksgiving is in just a few days and this year we’re planning on spending the holiday weekend with my darling husband’s family. I am really looking forward to sharing the holiday with them. I know not many people get to say this but I just absolutely LOVE my mother and father in law. They are truly the parents I never had…I don’t remember if I mentioned this but I was raised by my grandparents and my aunt/uncle. Don’t get me wrong I love my family and they raised me right but a part of me still wished I had that mother/daughter or father/daughter relationship it was hard to watch my cousins have what I always wanted growing up. My MIL and FIL have given that to me they make me feel like I am their daughter and they are people I really respect. I thank god for all my blessings.



Native American Community

After a wonderful three day weekend I am dreading the week ahead. It’s going to be full of meetings, trainings, and an endless stack of paperwork. There are aspects of my job that I like and then there are parts of it that I really dread.

On the home front hubby left for yet another mini tour this morning. This time they will be in Phoenix, AZ; Riverside, CA; San Carlos, AZ; Gallup, NM and finally home on Sunday night. I am really glad they are booking more shows this year and I really hope it picks up in the future. Musicians often joke that they are paying their dues,well, that’s where this band is at right now. Paying their dues but there’s always hope. Hope that maybe someone in that audience that they play for is a scout. Hope that soon it will all be well worth the sacrifices, time, energy, and money. I for one would just love to see Native Americans break into mainstream music, that for me would just be amazing.

I have been pondering on a subject over the weekend, that is quite a sensitive one for the Native American community. The use of Native American culture, traditions, art, and designs in mainstream media/fashion by non natives. For example, the recent music video by the popular band No Doubt and most recently the use of a Native American headdress on Victoria’s Secret’s runways (For the record, both have apologized for doing so). Even fashion at this very moment is very inspired by Native American Art and Designs as I observed walking through our local mall. As far as the fashion goes I can’t say I was offended at first to see Native American inspired clothing on the racks of my favorite store, actually, I was excited and somewhat proud, thinking wow, we’re mainstream! Then, I started thinking about the business side of things. I thought I wonder how much money these companies are making using these designs and my mind automatically went back to the Native American Artist at the Santa Fe Indian Market. Will they have to lower their prices now because these are now available at a lower price? Because they have to be made in China, right?  How will this affect our artists? I went back and forth about the pros and cons. After all the battles I had with myself on the subject I came to one pro on my list that may benefit my native people. I thought maybe….. just maybe this will open doors for Native American Actors and Musicians because I can’t really see the Native American community upset about real Native Americans expressing their own culture in No Doubt’s music video or a Native American super model with a headdress in Victoria’s Secret’s runway show. I have even seen a recent music video by Nelly Furtado with actual Native American Hoop Dancers and that my friends is what I look forward to seeing a whole lot more.



Veteran’s Day Weekend

Good Morning from my side of the world.

The past few days have been very busy for me with work, and home. Hubby left for another two days of concerts one is a benefit concert and the other at a local college. I am feeling very thankful today not just because today is the end of my week (that’s just a bonus) but because it’s Veteran’s day weekend. Our community is small but each year we celebrate our local Veterans with a parade and a community meal. I really do enjoy this time of year. In the fall I am always reminded to count my blessings and to be thankful. Here are just a few things I am thankful for in this moment.

I am thankful for all the Veterans both active and retired for fighting for our freedom.

I am thankful for the Navajo Nation Code Talkers, they make me proud that I can speak my native language.

I am thankful for the families of each Veteran for their sacrifices.

Most of all I am thankful to be an American and although the election results weren’t what I had hoped for I will continue to respect and pray for our President. I hope you all have a wonderful Veteran’s Day Weekend.


It’s Friday Afternoon

I am so unbelievably glad it’s Friday Afternoon. 🙂

This week AND October have just gone by way too fast! So, I learned over the last two days that hubby will be on tour during New Year’s Day this year 😦 this will be the first New Year that we will be spending apart in the last ten years since we’ve been together. I’m sad about that but glad they’re booking more shows on the East Coast.

There aren’t any gigs booked for this weekend so we get to have a family weekend YAY!!! Plus, maybe a date night for hubby and I. It’s been way too long since we have had a chance to get out, just the two of us. I’m very much looking forward to that. Now hopefully I can find a babysitter.

Happy Birthday to me!!

So, today is my birthday and I feel like a celebrity on Facebook. HA! Gosh, I wonder if anyone would remember birthdays if it weren’t for Facebook.

I have plans this afternoon to take my darling girl to a pumpkin patch in Corrales with a petting zoo and all. We went to a smaller patch over the weekend nothing too exciting just pumpkins and hay. I am excited about this one since there will be animals and my girl LOVES horses and sheep. Then dinner with my little family. I am really looking forward to it. Hopefully some cake too 🙂 Yay!! Happy Birthday to me.

Our weekend ended in fear and worries.

This weekend ended in fear and worries for my little family.  It started out all so great, Saturday Hubby came home around 5am from his gig the night before and slept most of the day. My daughter and I woke up around 8am ready for the day, I had a whole lot of cleaning to catch up on and she had a lot of energy to burn. We made a good breakfast and started off on our day. Things wound down as the day progressed, chores, and meals were complete.  We spent the rest of the evening relaxing and watching movies together as a family. Saturday was a good day.

Sunday was very busy. We got up, ate breakfast, got ready for church, dropped Grandma off at her church (all Navajo language church) then off to our church. I should have known it was not going to be a good day after I sliced my finger on our new Ninja Blending Appliance while cleaning the parts.  After church we planned to head to the nearest pumpkin patch, get some groceries, stop by to drop off a piece of furniture at a relative’s house, stop by our church in the evening to discuss Wednesday’s church harvest fest, and then finally head home and relax a bit before the week began again. Everything went as planned except for the relaxing part.

In a few seconds everything changed. My daughter was on the couch while I was cleaning up after she had finished her last snack of the day. She got up started to stand on the couch and while she was standing I warned her to sit down. In the mere SECOND that I looked away to place a piece of paper in the trash she fell off, head first. As I looked back she was already on the floor and I saw the last bit of her fall as she bent her little neck  back as she tumbled and finally fell in a face up position. My little darling girl burst out crying. At that moment I felt like the WORST MOTHER in history. Hubby raced into the room demanding an explanation, I just held my precious baby in my arms wishing I could take her place at that very moment. Within minutes she stopped crying but she seem very disoriented. It was so hard to tell since her bed time had passed. Her father and I asked her questions that she normally could respond to. Daddy grabbed a stuffed animal horse and asked, “sweetie, what’s this?” baby girl responded “Emo” she never got that wrong, she always got that right! We feared the worst.

I called the local paramedics and they advised that we take her in immediately. We sped of to the nearest Emergency Room, and to my surprise there weren’t too many people in the pediatric emergency room.  The entire time we were waiting there I just kept replaying the moment in my head….. How could I let this happen? Why didn’t I just grab her instead of throwing that piece of paper in the trash first? We got through triage, then into a room where we waiting what felt like an eternity. It was getting harder and harder to keep her awake, I kept her up out of fear that she may have a concussion. Finally a nurse came in and informed us that we could let her sleep since we’re now in the ER. My darling girl drifted off into sleep and the doctor came in and said she would be getting a CT SCAN to make sure there isn’t any swelling/bleeding in the brain. Oh my goodness, I thought, and the fear just over came me. The ‘what if’ thoughts kept reeling in my head. Hubby and I prayed over and over. The radiologist came to escort us to the CT SCAN room and she asked me to place my baby on the bed and said I could stay there with her. I don’t think they could have made me leave the room anyway, they placed a vest on me and started up the machine. As I watched the machine do it’s job I just kept saying the same prayer over and over. Lord, I pray that there is nothing wrong with my baby and that she is as healthy as ever. It was finished and we all went back to the room. The doctor came in after 20 minutes and with good news. It was a mild concussion, there is no bleeding/swelling of the brain. Everything is fine. Thank you JESUS!!!  Hubby and I just prayed again. I learned my lesson. I don’t think I would have forgiven myself if anything worst had happened. I still feel so guilty.

This morning as she woke up things seemed back to normal and fine but I just kept kissing my baby over and over. Praying to god to help me be a better mother.

Gig Day

I woke up this morning at 6:25 am and sure enough hubby was still asleep. The band has a gig in San Carlos, AZ at 5pm this evening. I woke him up and got myself up to get ready for the day. After a quick shower, a kiss for me and a kiss for baby girl he was out the door, they left at 7am to hit the road.

It is an approximate 6 hour drive but it’s a nice one. I always enjoyed driving to San Carlos, AZ through the desert then finally the beautiful mountains. There’s something about driving through the mountains in the fall that just makes you feel alive. The crisp cool air, smell of pine, cedar, wildlife, and such fresh air!! There is a bridge between the mountains with a rest area that I always like to stop at. Just plain beautiful. If you have ever listened to Native American Flute music, it’s the kind of music that brings me back to that area.

After hubby left I had to race the clock to get myself ready, baby girl ready, packed and then we were out the door at 7:45 (late), I dropped her off at one of her Nali’s (Paternal Grandmother in Navajo) she is my husbands aunt and has been such a big help to us.

As I drove from their house I said a prayer for my baby, myself, hubby, and the day that we face.

A Family in Business

I thought I would take time today to write about the band and being a part of a family business.

The members of the band are all related and began at a very young age. They are a three piece band, all members of the Navajo Nation. I am very proud of all of them and their success. It all started out so simple and fun! Almost like fate.

As the year progressed it evolved into a business and sometimes… I do really miss the family part. Each member of my family has made big sacrifices for our family band to get from gig to gig, or go on tour for weeks…..because well, we believe in them. As a business major I know all too well the risks involved in having a family business and how it can strain relationships, this is my biggest fear. I pray about this often and at this point I feel like it’s the only thing I can do.

On a personal level, I have had my share of worries about hubby being on the road and it is a struggle on the home front especially in the last year. I have a daytime job and I often have to find a care provider for my daughter while I work. We live on the reservation and there is no daycare locally. Extended family members have really helped me in this area. I am so thankful to each of them.

I do my best to be the encouraging and supportive wife.  It is hard but I believe in my husband and he has great potential. I pray that he and his band get the recognition they deserve.

The Family business is a blessing but I do pray that we remain a close family first and foremost.