It’s February

Here I am an entire month has passed since the new year and like usual I fell off the fitness resolution I started with. I made it to day 6 of the 30 day shred and then completely fell back into my old habits. I don’t know what it will take to keep me motivated but I know one thing is for sure….I am tired. I am tired of my own excuses and I know that I am my biggest enemy. My body is tired of carrying this extra weight and I really need to change my habits.

I am NOT going to give up. In the last week or so I have been really watching what I eat. If its not something particularly healthy, I watch my portions. I am making an effort to plan my meals. So far I have lost three pounds, it’s small but it’s a start. I am also planning on beginning the shred again. I admit that….. I am sooooo not a morning person but its the only free time I really have so I will be working on that part too. No more excuses. I have to change.

Bad Habits

I fell back into my old bad habits yesterday. I had a soda, some chips, and candy. I had this state of mind, “well, I’m working out now so it’s okay to eat this” all day. I really need to change this state of mind and remind myself that I need to keep on the straight and narrow if I want the results I’m working for.

I also didn’t wake up in time for Day 5 of the 30 day shred….another bad habit. I am hoping I will have some time to do it later. I have a much better chance of working out in the morning than I do any other time of the day. If I don’t get it in today, I definitely plan on continuing the workout tomorrow. I may try the butt workout that I found on pinterest yesterday instead….it’s shorter and it will allow me to spend some time with my darling girl this evening.

 

Day 4, Level 1 Completed of the 30 day shred. Having to say goodbye.

This morning my eyes popped open at 6:11 am. I dreaded getting out of my warm bed but I reminded myself that today was Day 4 of my challenge. I have made it this far. I haven’t been consistent about getting my workout in so early in the morning and I have missed a few days but I refuse to give up. I need this change. I have noticed after my first pregnancy that my body has changed not only in the regular weight gain, stretch marks, etc. but also I have noticed that my joints are weak, there’s a sporadic pain in my hips/back. I feel like these ailments are coming from the extra weight I have been carrying since college. I lost all the weight that I gained with my pregnancy but I started the pregnancy being 40 pounds overweight.

Last night, I received my copy of “The Black Eyed Peas Experience” game for my wii so I popped it in and I had so much fun dancing that I didn’t notice that I danced for over an hour. My sweet little one had so much fun dancing with me and even my hubby joined in on the fun. I hope to have more nights like that with my little family. As my darling girl was going to sleep she kept saying “dance?” it was awesome.

I have mentioned before that I do work in my community, which is on the Navajo Nation. Well, yesterday we had to say goodbye to someone I really looked up to and respected in my company. This man has a such a big heart for the Navajo people. He isn’t Navajo, he is Caucasian but I always considered him Navajo. He understood the culture and knew more about the traditions than I did….even the language. I have so much respect for this man, he had taught me so much in the last five years and it was hard for me to see him leave. I really hate goodbyes.I lost my Chei (grandfather) a few years ago. This man reminded me so much of my own Chei. He would tell me stories about the old days, railroads, Navajo Code Talkers, and he had a excellent work ethic. I am going to miss him. In his absence I feel like there will be so much change in the company and I have to admit I have my fears. For right now I can only hope for the best and I am doing my best to continue to have positive thoughts about going forward.